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Springtime skincare

As we emerge from winter, my skin is changing by the second. My formerly dry – no, quenched – face is beginning to let out the telltale beads of warmer temperatures. By this evening, our loft flat is already beginning to warm-up as the sun hits the roof. Even if we did have snow only last week.

This year, the panic is gone. Because I’ve decided to learn from my past failures and embrace lighter cosmetics. Out are gorgeous moisturising oils like shea and jojoba. In are lightweight silicone based gel creams. I’ve previously been a huge fan of the Aveeno Calm and Protect Oat Gel Cream. Still am. But I can’t describe how relieved I am to have found a new holy grail product.

The Neutrogena Hydro Boost Water Gel Cream takes the beautiful finish of Aveeno’s dimethicone based moisturiser and pairs it with their hyaluronic acid complex. I’ve never been one for hyaluronic acid. Ever since my earlier flirtations with L’Oreal’s obvious attempt at duping the product. But Neutrogena’s fragrance-free formula is where the company shines best. Their tendency to over complicate with a million different product lines, full of old-fashioned, potentially irritating ingredients is in stark contrast with the pared back innovation of their Hydro Boost products.

The end result is a moisturised face, without a hint of greasiness. One that’s comfortable, even during my moister moments (yes, I’m a face sweater). And their Hydro Boost Water Gel Cleanser does something I’ve struggled to find in a face wash: lather without drying. Again, a testament to their focus on the line’s simplicty over the added extras that are commonplace in even the unnecessary of places. Do we really need niacinimide in every single product?

Even if I can get on board with hydrating cleansers like Cetaphil’s Gentle Cleanser or Cerave’s Hydrating Facial Cleanser, the milky consistency just isn’t doing it for me. Skincare is as sensorial of an experience, as it is a practical one. We like what we like.

Another thing to mention is the price difference. As of writing this, the Hydro Boost products haven’t fallen victim to Cerave’s downright evil inflation. In a world where Oat milk is 10p more expensive by the minute, I can’t cope with being priced out of my favourite pleasures.

Finally, it’s time to talk SPF. The most difficult topic of all for my sweaty-faced friends. Finding a water resistant facial SPF that doesn’t break me out or drip into my eyes has been a personal mission of mine.

But I’ve found it. At least for me, anyway. Cetaphil’s Sheer Mineral Face Liquid Sunscreen is everything I love in an SPF and reminds me honestly of two of my other affordable faves (Biore’s Barrier Me SPF 50 and Garnier’s Ombre Solaire SPF 50+ UV Protection Face Fluid). You might even find it’s a good mineral alternative to La Roche Possay’s fluid formulas. It’s lightweight, gives me a healthy glow, and dries pleasantly without caking in my creases.

I’m a fan of mineral SPFs, but finding one that suits your skin tone can be a nightmare. Especially if you’ve not got a good selection of tints available in your local Boots. Avene’s Tinted Tolerance Fluid is fabulous, but paler girlies will inevitably find it’s orange twinge unworkable. Nudestix (in the UK) and Neutrogena (in the US) do seem to be on their way to cracking the code for deeper skin. But for me, I can get away with most – as long as my beard is trimmed. Overall, Cetaphil seem to have done a good job at minimising white cast. The body lotion version, though, I’d swap out for one of Nivea’s many water proof SPF 50+ body creams.

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What I read in Feb!

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I did a fair bit of traveling here and there in February, and what’s better than a long train ride for doing some reading? Well, maybe not my journey back from Liverpool to Cardiff. I’ve never been in a carriage packed so tightly in my life. But I won’t dwell on that for too long, because other than those hellish 4 hours, it’s been a great month!

Let’s start with Claire Keegan’s Foster. I was bitten by the bug when I read Small Things Like These in January. Foster’s writing is so beautiful that she manages to make novels as short as these two feel every bit as hard hitting as an epic. In fact, perhaps the shorter length is what lends itself so well to such beautiful storytelling. It’s not just the level of emotional detail that makes her such a phenomenal writer, the real skill is how nothing feels spare. Every sentence is so rich, you won’t be worried about Keegan running out of words.

Next was Pamela Anderson’s fabulous memoir Love, Pamela. And let me tell you before we get into it; if you haven’t signed up for Pam’s newsletter, you’re missing out. I look forward to her weekly journals more than I do to my Saturday Starbucks.

For a relatively short memoir, I was impressed by how much of Anderson’s life is covered. My favourite chapters were the one’s where the author dove head first into some of the wildest stories of her political activism. Such as taking vegan meals to Edward Snowdon, or challenging Russian politicians on their animal rights policies. Not only is Pamela fearless, her perspective is crystal clear.

I love romance. I have to say it. The cheesier the better. But occasionally you stumble across something special. May Archer’s The Easy Way was something special. Besides hitting on some of the most tried and true romance tropes, Archer manages to work in exciting plot, giving her characters not just carefully detailed emotional stakes, but some dramatic ones too.

Finally this Feb, I went back for another Anglesey Crime Thriller from Simon McCleave. In Too Deep follows DI Laura Hart as she officially gets back to work. Now, I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again: McCleave’s care in building DI Hart’s backstory is really where these novels shine. Nothing is throwaway. Chuck in some double agents for the Real IRA and murder on the Isle of Angelsey, and you’re in for another ride!

McCleave did not disappoint, but now I’ve got three more months until the next installment!

Overall, another fabulous month. I can wholeheartedly recommend everything I read in Feb. Genre-wise, there’s something for everyone at the very least!

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Walking to town (to go to W.H Smith)

I’ve written quite a bit about moving from a small town to the city, and all the benefits that come along with 24-hour supermarkets, and ordering warm cookie dough at 2am. But while I was on my afternoon stroll today, I couldn’t help but think about the benefits of a small-town childhood. Namely, appreciating the most basic of retail outlets.



I should make it clear, when I say small town, I’m referring to the relatively small town centre. The reality is that Colwyn Bay has a modest population of 34,000. A fact that is all the more jarring when compared to Llandudno – dinging in at only 20,000. Especially when you take into account how vast Llandudno’s seafront is and how great it is for shopping.

What struck me the most when I got to reminiscing, was how, despite the relatively limited retail outlets, what we had was within such short walking distance. Obviously this comes partly down to the fact that my parents bought a house in such a central location. But also to how small towns are organised. Everything, no matter how limited, is usually within a relatively short distance of one another. And what Colwyn Bay had (and mostly still has) is a theatre, a supermarket, a fabulously rundown W.H. Smith’s (that I miss dearly) and a handful of pubs, cafes and market stalls that pepper the high street. It even had the smallest branch of New Look you’ll have ever seen (and how I worked that tiled floor in my faux Docs, and my even faux-er clip in extensions).

Right, where was I? Oh, yes! I would like to mount a passionate defense of W.H. Smith. Sure, some branches might not be able to compete with the range of choices available somewhere like Waterstones, or have the same level of customer care as an independent book shop. But what they did have were the very brand of soapy, commercial novels that instilled my love of reading.

Where else does an 18 year-old small town queer flock to for menthol fags and a Marian Keyes paperback? How about the endless hardback notebooks, waiting to be filled with what I did in work that day and what boy off Grindr cancelled a date to get his hair braided (yes, that happened)? W.H. Smith! And where else would one of my straight male best friends go to purchase the naked issue of Gay Times for my 16th birthday (yes, that also happened!).

So, let’s cut the shop some slack. The little one’s in train stations and airports are even quite nice (sometimes). I can spend anywhere upwards of 25 minutes going round-and-round the tiny aisles, filling my arms with bottles of water, cans of Coke Zero, awful falafel wraps, and a trashy mag for good measure. The one in Cardiff Central even has a fabulous little Costa counter, where for an extortionate amount of money, you can walk away with two packets of Percy Pigs and a very milky Oat Latte. What is not to love?!

In a world of increasing choice, and a decreasing high street, I feel exceptionally well-placed to avoid the burnout that comes with too much choice. And absolutely inoculated against the disappointment of a dwindling number of brick-and-mortar shops. Because as long as there’s a clapped-out old Smiths, everything will be alright.

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What did I read in January 2023?

January was a good start to the year! Though I have to admit, I’m finding book shopping and stumbling across something I’d like to read quite difficult at the moment. Perhaps this is something to do with the new year being a generally low energy time for most of us (those who aren’t going mad at the gym or taking up new hobbies).

Photo of the cover of 'The Secret Life of Albert Entwistle' by Matt Cain being displayed on a Kindle.

I started the year with ‘The Secret Life of Albert Entwistle’ by Matt Cain. An absolute joy. I love reading fiction with older protagonists. What this book did so beautifully was share how universal the search for love and acceptance is. Anyone struggling with the idea that they’ve wasted any portion of their life on worrying what others think, or let it force them out of doing what they really wanted, will find this massively soothing. The reality of life is, we can change our minds, and lives, at any age. It’s never too late.

The book also handles class and inter-generational friendships beautifully too. Albert’s relationship with Nicole, a young mum trying to change her life by attending the local college, is also handled brilliantly. Nicole’s experience of living on a council estate rubs up against the expectations of her new boyfriend’s parents in a way that felt genuine. I’d definitely recommend for anyone looking for something feel good.

Claire Keegan’s ‘Small Things Like These’ is set in 1985, in small-town Ireland. While this may have been more appropriate as a Christmas read, it didn’t hinder my enjoyment one bit. Claire Keegan is a master of storytelling. How she crams so much emotion into such short books is beyond my comprehension. Nothing feels rushed, every word is intentional. It’s sent me on a journey through the rest of her work, but more on that next month! I can’t recommend this enough!

‘Boys Don’t Cry’ by Fiona Scarlett didn’t disappoint either. I don’t know if Irish authors are capable of disappointing. I like to think it’s the Celtic storytelling gene. Irish, Scot, or Welsh, we won’t shut up for the life of us. That’s a lot of practice spinning a yarn.

The novel takes place in a Dublin tower block. Even though I had seen reviews describing the book as heartbreaking, I still didn’t feel prepared. This book is a reminder that we are not all dealt the same cards. And some families are given more than their fair share to contend with.

Finally, and perhaps the most surprising based on everything else I read in January, is Simon McCleave’s ‘The Dark Tide’. Having grown up in North Wales, and missing home from the ever-so-slightly sunnier climes of Cardiff, I was desperate to read something set where I grew up. Perhaps a crime thriller wasn’t the cosiest of vibes, but it sure did it keep me gripped from the first page.

McCleave does a really great job of showing how interwoven small-town life is with the city. Everyone knows someone who’s either left for it, or returned. And with it, brought plenty of baggage. As the first in a series, this book does an amazing job (better than any crime novel I’ve read before) of setting up our protagonist’s origin story. DCI Laura Hart was a top negotiator working for the Manchester police force, and now she’s living in a small town on Anglesey, riddled with both grief and guilt.

It is undoubtedly impressive how McCleave weaves in elements of DCI Hart’s backstory into the plot, and even sets up even more drama in the books to come. I’ll certainly be reading the next in the series.

If you’ve read any of the books mentioned, let me know what you thought!

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Going home

Come September, it will be 8 years since I left home and moved to Cardiff. I suppose, for lots of people, when you’ve grown up in a small town, there is a tendency to feel as though so much of our personality is defined by how we adapt to life in bigger, busier places. We start to see ourselves as an evolution of who we once were. And there’s no wonder, especially if we’ve spent years trying to figure out how to make life go faster. Then, once we’re on the ride, all we’re doing is trying to hold on.

But, honestly, I think the only part of me that’s really changed is my threshold for inconvenience. I now know that I am truly spoiled by choice and my patience is ruined. I didn’t expect to find myself getting irrationally angry at shops and cafes closing at 5pm. That being said, in December, I discovered that Colwyn Bay now has Uber. Yes, that’s right, my parents can now order a takeaway or a taxi from an app. Though I’d certainly be surprised if they ever did.

Something I was always grateful for, living in North Wales, was that the town I grew up was relatively well served by public transport. Even if I am constantly shocked by how much more expensive a day ticket is. So, on my birthday, Rob and I got the train to Bangor. A city with a high street that gets more than it’s fair share of criticism. Though, if you’ve grown up in the area and watched shops slowly disappear from the city centre, only to relocate on retail parks on the outskirts of Caernarfon Road, it would be impossible not to feel as though the life is being slowly drained away from the town.

What I think punches above it’s weight, is Bangor’s independent retailers, keeping the city alive. Whenever I go home, I’m always itching to hop on the number 5 bus, or catch to train to go digging around Mudshark. The very shop where I bought my first ever record (Bjork’s Homogenic, if you must know), and continue to find just about anything I might be looking for. Spiritually, it reminds me of visiting Cob Records, just down the other end of the high street, when I was a child. An event so exciting that it had my parents and two brothers, all crammed into my Dad’s car with fresh batteries in our Walkmans.

Cob lives on in Porthmadog, but for a long time, the Bangor location was up there with Kavern Records in Llandudno as the one of the most reliable and well-stocked music retailers in North Wales. Mudshark is really all about the vinyl revival though. And their emphasis on speciality and local artists makes it all the more exciting. I’ve been going there since I was doing my A-Levels, back when they were crammed into their old spot, opposite the New Look (also still kicking), and I’m glad to see them still thriving.

What I wasn’t prepared for, was how easy it was to find somewhere that serves vegan food. Domu, previously an Irish pub, making their green facade seem doubly appropriate, was a real revelation. The cafe is run by husband and wife Dale (a founding member of The Smiths) and Svet (Classical musician and music teacher). Both take on the roles of Chef and front of house, and I must say, were exceptionally lovely on the Tuesday afternoon we visited. I had a pumpkin stew with rice, Rob had the chilli. Neither disappointed. With only a week and half of 2022 left, we were both in agreement as we left that this was easily our top meal of the year.

Even the oat lattes and chocolate tart we had to top it off were faultless. And the place was packed. We managed to grab the last available table and straight away Svet was over to explain that they still had ‘plenty of everything.’ Everything, as it happens, is made in batches in the morning and sold until it’s gone. All in the spirit of an Eastern European roadside cafe. So, I was glad we got there just after midday for an early lunch. I couldn’t quite believe the amount of cakes and pastries (savoury and sweet) that were on offer. Note: if you visit, the chocolate tart was somehow both the richest, and lightest thing I’ve ever eaten.

Eventually, we made our way onto the pier. Bangor Pier is one of my all time favourite places. A colleague of mine who studied in Bangor told me that she recently visited with her husband, all with the purpose of having a scone at the Pier Pavilion. A cafe that serves just about anything you could imagine (salads, baguettes, toasties, soup, cakes – all with vegan options). We had another two coffees, along with a slice of lemon cake to share (it was my birthday, after all).

Garth Pier juts out over the Menai Straits, and on a windy day, anything that isn’t bolted down has a good chance of being lost forever. But the little huts at the end are the perfect spot to catch your breath, tighten your scarf, and mentally prepare yourself for the return walk. While Llandudno ‘s Victorian Pier might be filled to capacity with things to do on a day out (arcades, fairground rides, tat shops galore and more chippies than a seagull could ever dream of), Garth Pier is more understated. It’s somewhere to stop for a coffee and unwind. And all for a suggested donation of 50p.

It took us a few attempts to work the card reader. In the end, the attendant suggested we try again on our way out, or if all else fails ‘just pay next time’. In the end, it thankfully went through. Saving me the guilt of having to leave the friendliest volunteer I’d ever met empty-handed. As Pier of the Year 2022, it was more than worth the £1 entry for both of us. And following a successful trial after the 2017 restoration, even dogs are welcome now.

Sure, everything might close on a Sunday. And yes, shops close earlier than I’m now accustomed to. But every visit reminds me of how inconsequential endless choice is when everything that is on offer is so beautiful. It’s not hard to find yourself imagining what life would be like popping out for a scone and a coffee on Saturday mornings. Or with all that endless space to walk the dog. I left for the train full, and with that ever present ache until we next return.

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Exercise, when you’re someone who doesn’t exercise

It can be intimidating to step foot into a gym where incredibly passionate (and incredibly buff) people go to maintain their huge muscles and tiny waists. But what I suspect, is that there is a sizeable population of gym users, joggers, and walkers, that don’t have a single goal in mind. People who aren’t particularly interested in transforming themselves into an Olympic athletes or marathon sprinters.

I’ve had so many conversations with friends, or well-meaning gym bunnies, who love to roll off platitudes like ‘well, everyone has to start somewhere.’ Which is certainly true. But what if you’re not trying to look good with your top off? What if you’re just in need of getting out the house?

I’d had a long break from exercise, years really, by the time of the first lockdown. In March 2020, in Wales, we were permitted a daily walk, as long as we set off on foot from our front door. And do you know what I did? Absolutely nothing.

For the first few months, I rarely left the sofa. The only exceptions were food, and trips to the bathroom. I was too afraid some days to even collect parcels. Thank God for the delivery drivers everywhere kindly leaving us our romance novels and bulk-bought spaghetti on the step. I’d even put my mask on for answering the door. I was terrified.

My partner, also terrified, but certainly less than I was, carried on heading out every day to work. Don’t worry, I’m perfectly aware of how ridiculous it is that I, a person who was paid to stay at home by the government, seemed to be having a rougher go of it than my social care worker boyfriend. But, some of us are built from weaker stuff.

It wasn’t until, probably August of that year, when things began to relax a little, and the prospect of a trip home to visit my parents, who I’d missed miserably and thought about every other second of the day, all year, that I realised: Oh God, it’s time to get out.

So, off around the block I went. Headphones in, podcast playing. While I’ve never been one to do anything by halves, that was really all I could manage. I’d spent so much time sitting around and doing nothing, that I was exhausted, physically and emotionally by a 5 minute walk to the end of my road, round the street behind us, and back round the other side. EXHAUSTED.

Still, for pure desperation and need for some inner sanity, I persisted and two months later, I was off for all-day, 10, 12, sometimes even 15 mile walks. From my front door to Taff’s Well, Pontypridd, even Newport city centre. How I managed it, I’m not sure. But what I realised quite quickly was how insignificant all of my worries became when I kept moving. For those few hours I was out the house, sense prevailed. The light was pouring in through the branches. The tunnel, well, the end was lit.

Why had no one ever told me that a bit of exercise could do this? That something as simple as a walk, could have the power to offer so much mental space, so much clarity, and floods of comfort? Okay, they had. My Mum certainly had, even Rob had suggested I’d feel much better after a walk and he’s more content with crisps and TV than anyone I’ve ever met. What I mean to say is: why had I never believed them?

For all of my moaning at the beginning, I do think the conversation around exercise is changing. Slowly are things becoming more inclusive, and as a by-product, more welcoming. Seeing someone who looks like you in a hoody and trainers goes some way to quietening your inner critic when you’re just getting started. But, here is where I need to admit that I was wrong. I’d always assumed that people who said they exercised for the mental health benefits were either one of two things: liars or addicts. And as someone who both didn’t believe them, and has been an exercise addict (oh, yes!), I couldn’t believe they were possibly saying something I needed to hear.

When I was 17, I lost a lot of weight (5 stone to be exact) in a relatively short period of time. I went mad for the treadmill, and long jogs in the sunshine. And I think, looking back, paid twofold for how extreme I was. Not just for the toll it can take on your social life, but for how it shaped such an unhealthy attitude towards food and exercise for the years that followed. So, as I went went away to university, drank lots, smoked lots, and ate even more, I began to stack it on.

By the time I’d finished my postgraduate studies, working as a part-time bar and retail supervisor, I looked and felt like an entirely different person. Not all for the worse, I’d met someone I loved, and we made a home together. I was also lucky enough to have an education that I enjoyed getting. But, I was also incredibly anxious, and trying anything to take my worries down from what felt like a 10 to a slightly more manageable 7.

Nearly 3 years ago when the world ground to a stop, I couldn’t have imagined how wonderful I was capable of feeling. 4 hour walks aren’t really an option now that I have an office job. I might work from home but there is only so much you can get away with. It’s nearly a year since I started going to the gym too, and I’ve been making smoothies and porridge like my life depends on it. And I’m truly not convinced I’ve lost a pound. And I don’t mind one bit.

What regular, moderate exercise has given me is both the balance I needed, and resilience, to feel equipped for handling stress. Now, I’m calm enough to enjoy every single day, and awake enough to take it all in. My starting point was a 5 minute walk around the block, and even if I still look exactly the same (though my haircut is certainly better than it was during COVID), I have to admit that those smug little bastards in Lycra might have been right: we all start somewhere.

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New Year’s Ease

The last time round, I was thinking a lot about the small pleasures of life. The sense of accomplishment we’re all capable of feeling when we feel able to find gratitude in the domestic. I wrote about what felt like the closure of a tumultuous time and the comfort I found in learning to bake. You may not know this but baking as a vegan is like engaging in a dangerous scientific experiment with a blindfold on. On Christmas Eve 2022, in my frenzied search for a dessert down the aisles of Tesco, I discovered my saviour: a bottle of egg substitute.

I’ve tried every variation of this type of product, some sort of okay for baking (though often producing a strange texture, far too dense for most sponge recipes) and some that scramble brilliantly, made from chickpea flour and, I assume, ground up pieces of pure solid gold. One box cost me upwards of £6. I don’t know any omnivore eating eggs for £1 a pop.

But this strange yellow bottle did the unthinkable. Already a liquid, it somehow managed to measure as the perfect baking substitute while holding it’s own in a hot frying pan. It’s not supposed to be this easy is it? The wildest part of this whole experience is that it isn’t even made from obscure ingredients like fermented mung beans, but instead: the humble pea.

I followed a simple lemon sponge recipe, swapping out the eggs for this gloopy genius (think egg with fresh cream whipped in) and whisked up some vegan cream cheese with the dregs of icing sugar left in my parents cupboard. The result: a fluffy, moist, lemon sponge cake with a delicious rich cream cheese filling. With it, an entire year of dedicated trial and error, chemical reactions, and endless baking, evaporated like it never even happened. Did it all feel like a waste of time?

Truthfully? I felt an unspeakable relief. No more carefully thickening soya milk with vinegar. Instead, decrease the oven temperature by 10 degrees Celsius and increase the baking time by 15 minutes.

So much of our resistance to change comes from our inclination to preserve our struggle as something worth while. Something necessary that we had to go through in order to arrive at an end point where we have something up on everyone else still slogging through it. We see it in resistance to our welfare system – why should it be easy for them when it was so difficult for me? We see it in generational attitudes to changing technology – why would I need a mobile phone when my landline works perfectly well? And we see it in our relationships too – why would I throw this thing away when I’ve already worked so damn hard to keep it alive?

But as I move into this new year, I’m not so focused on resolutions as I am on giving my head a wobble. Why work so hard when things can be easy? Maybe this year we can allow ourselves the gift of taking the easy road, instead of endless manoeuvring.

That’s not to say everything should be easy, or that the difficult to reach goals aren’t worth fighting for. Or that we can avoid hardship fullstop. But maybe, this year, we can give ourself the gift of not overly moralising when an easy option presents itself. Instead, why not allow ourselves to do simply whatever needs to be done, to give ourselves the space we deserve to finally put our feet up.

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Best of the budget skincare (2022 Edition)

My ideal holiday is somewhere cold with a proper good Boots. The kind that have cosmetics counters, not the little rubbish ones you get in train stations. Though, I have been known to spend just as much time in those. If you didn’t know already, SPF is my passion. Night cream, my way of life. But in 2022, I needed to go back to basics.

I’ve picked my top three products of the year: a cleanser, moisturiser and SPF. Looking back, I’m not shocked in the slightest. These were by far, some of the most pleasant, easily accessible, and affordable options.

As the year began, all bets were off. I was trying products left, right and centre. But as the year went on, the unthinkable happened: adult acne. I’d been lucky to avoid any issues with my skin for most of my life, minus some eczema as a child. But when I started to get painful blemishes, I turned to tried and trusted Differin Gel, and a whole load of gentle soothing alternatives to the products I was using.

Starting with cleanser, my favourite product of the year has to be Aveeno’s Calm + Restore Nourishing Oat Cleanser.

If you’re a fan of Cerave’s Hydrating cleanser and unsure how cope with the rising tide of Cerave’s prices, I implore you to give this a go. It is every bit as gorgeous as it sounds. Colloidal oats soothe and gently cleanse, helping to keep my skin barrier from taking any further beatings. It’s also just small enough to fit in my toiletry bag – perfect for travelling.

Aveeno feature again in my top three, this time though it’s their Calm + Restore Oat Gel Moisturiser.

Every time I open this jar, I look forward to the cool loveliness of the gel cream. Gel moisturisers are a great option in general for anyone prone to oiliness or dealing with acne, but what Aveeno nail with this product is the simplicity. With glycerine as the main humectant, colloidal oats to sooth, and no added extras like niacinimide, this helped guide my skin back to it’s former glory.

I used to be a huge fan of Cerave’s PM Lotion. A product I would have recommended to anyone looking to consolidate their routine and save money on serums and night creams. But as the price crept up, and my skin seemingly lost it’s ability to tolerate niacinimide, I was desperate for an alternative. I thank God for this perfect all round facial moisturiser.

Finally, please give a warm welcome to a seemingly impossible product. A deliciously moisturising mineral SPF, with PA++++ UVA coverage, that doesn’t leave me looking like Casper the friendly ghost. What’s more? It’s not even tinted!

Within less a few minutes this product disappears, leaving my skin with a lovely healthy glow. The trick? Just let it sit. You might find on initial application that you aren’t convinced, but give it a minute or two and you’ll be wondering where all that product went as it dries down into the perfect moisturising, blended finish.

I opted to try some mineral SPFs early on in the summer as my regular chemical faves started to cause some irritation when I applied. I now chalk this up to a damaged skin barrier. But whatever the cause, I needed high protection, and I needed it not to make me glow tomato red before I even left the house!

Enter Rovectin Skin Essentials Aqua Soothing UV Protector (SPF 50+ PA++++).

Rovectin are known for their gentle barrier loving formulas. I’ve loved this product so much, I’ve repurchased from Stylevana over and over and over again throughout the year. It provides high protection that is easy to reapply without leaving a wild white cast.

In the UK, we’re flooded with so many amazing chemical SPF formulas that nobody wants dodgy sun cream that leaves the m looking like a snowman. That’s why I was so excited to see people raving about the previously inconceivable: an untinted mineral SPF from a cruelty-free K Beauty brand, that leaves no cast and gives properly broad spectrum protection from both UVA and UVB rays. Having and tested it all summer (and winter), I can’t recommend enough!

Let me know in the comments if you’ve discovered any new favourites this year!

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next christmas, don’t bother

I love most things about December. But, all the talk of last minute shopping and food preparation timetables can take its toll on a fragile psyche. If you’re alone, or surrounded by family, this time of year can be as tough as it is joyous. However, as a formerly frazzled, Iet me tell you what I’ve come to learn and maybe we can all feel a bit less hellish.

For me, it’s all about the weeks of wandering around high street, festive decorations and glittery window displays everywhere you turn. Once the day rolls around, you realise: there it goes, see you in a year.

So, if it’s over before we know it, how do we make the most out of the festive season without spending all of our time feeling frazzled? After spending a good few Christmas just the two of us (as a result of either my partner’s job or the global pandemic we had), I think I’ve nailed it. Allow me an opportunity to convert you to a lower stress alternative.

The best thing I ever did as an adult is learn everyone’s favourite fragrances. Perfume is my favourite gift to give and receive. Men’s, women’s, unisex, I don’t care. Chanel Bleu will forever remind me of my high school prom. And Black Opium? Every night out with my best friend. As a gift, the right scent can make even my sloppiest of days feel luxurious.

A trip to The Fragrance Shop, or a walk around the beauty floor at John Lewis, activates the most primal part of my brain. Suddenly, I’m 10 years old, on a Christmas shopping trip to Chester with my Nanna. Let’s stop for lunch in BHS (full Christmas dinner, please!), then off to Boots for the two for one gift sets. My mouth waters for that muddle of top notes, indistinguishable, but not overwhelming. Bottle that up and I’ll be your most loyal customer.

Nowadays, I’m betrothed to Eden Perfumes. I came across them for the first time on a trip to Brighton while I was in university. Staying with a friend in a seafront hostel, this strange shop with big bottles nailed to the wall was the height of luxury. In reality, they’re just a great vegan alternative to all the designer brands. You name it, they, uh… pay homage. They’re also much cheaper and they even do candles now.

For those spending the season alone, lean into those Whatsapp group chats. Chances are, even those at home with the extended family are feeling just as lonely and out of sorts. Times of tradition and ritual have the ability to unsettle as much as they soothe. We remember, for better or worse. The nostalgia is inescapable. So, if you’re not feeling yourself, give a friend a call. Send them a snap of your M&S dauphinois and your fluffy socks. It might be exactly the kind of grounding they too need to get through the stifling feeling of being an adult in your childhood home. But if it’s all still feeling too much, don’t be afraid to switch off and rejoin the world on Boxing Day.

Now, food is where I worry I’m going to lose you. My brother’s presence requires a turkey that feeds at least 8-12 people. If you’re a fan of the dry stuff, please hear me out: you do not need a bird that big. Nobody does. Christmas is an event brought to life by sides. It’s all about maple roast parsnips, and caramelised carrots. Roast potatoes are what make or break the meal, not the meat. I say this as a both a glutton and an advocate for excess, it’s only going to be drowned in gravy anyway.

I must be upfront, I’ve not eaten meat in a decade, so I can’t give you any meaningful turkey tips. But I promise, an M&S nut roast will always looks more festive than a weird slab of vegetable protein resembling a turkey joint. If the fake meat is your thing (it’s certainly mine most of the time), lean in. But if you’re worried about catering for any carnivores, give it a miss. They’ll only let you know with every bite how weird it is.

My general rule is that a roast shouldn’t take more than 45 minutes to prepare and cook. Some things are worth a little extra work, but in general, the pay off does not warrant the stress. If you’re living, or just spending the big day alone, this is enough time to keep you busy without making too much washing up for yourself. Sprouts, carrots, parsnips and potatoes can all be tossed in vegetable oil and shoved on the same tray. Though you might want to pop the sprouts in 10-15 minutes before the end.

If, like me, you grew up in a home where pre-prepared vegetables indicated a moral failure worthy of ostracisation, allow me to ease your concerns. Those bags of pre-peeled and chopped carrots? Buy them and save money elsewhere. Everyone’s expectations are so heightened on Christmas day, and if you’re anything like me, once I’m feeling frazzled, it’s hard for enjoyment to come anywhere near to meeting expectation. The truth is, no one will know or care how much time you spent slaving over the root veg.

For fellow non-drinkies out there, Nosecco is a fun novelty and it’s only £3. But a can Diet Coke is just as perfect. It can be a nervous time of year to navigate the ‘why aren’t you drinking?’ conversation and ‘because I was previously mad and still have the potential to be mad’ can suck the air right out of the room. But once everyone sees that you’re just as comfortable, having just as much fun as they are, it’ll be yesterday’s news in no time. If they’ve experienced the mad, they’ll probably be glad your tipple is now 99% sparkling water, 1% artificial sweetener anyway.

Time spent on the sofa watching reruns of the Vicar of Dibley on GOLD is invaluable. Boxes of mince pies don’t eat themselves. For the few days a year we might all actually come together, nothing much really needs to happen at all. This year I bought a vegan alternative to a tin of Quality Street, and everyone was dying to look at the little menu and see how everything compared, even if the overpriced chocolates were a bit rubbish. We went to M&S on Christmas Eve to look for mince pies and ended up just having a coffee in Cafe Nero. Nothing needs to go to plan. Sometimes just saying ‘fuck it’ is all it takes to pierce the tension and make everything more fun for everyone involved.

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Downsizing

It’s been as good as a Sunday can get. We went to the shops, stocked up on spices (the only cupboard at my parents that can lack a bit of oumph). Rob let me pick everything I wanted for my birthday from Holland & Barrett. Yes, I know it’s strange to want all my gifts from there, but I just love the place. And I’ve just had the best roast dinner of my life. Home-cooked by my lovely Mum.

Carrots, brussel sprouts and vegan pigs in blankets, seasoned and on a roasting tray.

It’s the roast, by the way, that’s got me thinking. Thinking about roasts. And I’ve had a huge epiphany. Again, about roasts.

When you’re a vegan or a vegetarian, there’s a tendency, in my experience, to make up for an often underwhelming centre piece with as many side dishes as possible. For me, that’s filling the oven to the brim with as many different types of vegetable as possible, and roasting them until they’re golden and caramelised and perfect in every way. Except the thing about my roasts is, there’s always something that isn’t quite right. And now I know why.

Like many people, I have a tendency to put too much on my plate. Metaphorically and literally. So, when it comes to making a roast dinner, I’m always out of my element. I worry about timing everything perfectly. Don’t you know, everything needs to be ready at the same time? Even if I haven’t got the counter space to take everything out of the oven together.

Tenderstem brocoli in a frying pan with olive oil, garlic, chilli flakes and salt.

Stuffing is also a bit of a difficult topic for the non-meaties. We aren’t exactly stuffing anything, anywhere. So, what exactly are we trying to accomplish? Don’t even get me started on the redundancy of cooking stuffing to compliment a nut roast.

So, it’s time to simplify. Cut back on all of the unnecessary rubbish. If you’ve got one small oven and a kitchen so tiny it rivals that of a camper-van, perhaps it might be best to save yourself the hassle and downsize Sunday dinner.

Cut the carbs. One type of potato is enough. Roast it. Mash is for sausages and onion gravy. Pick two veg that take the same time to roast, and only peel what can fit alongside a frozen nut roast. They’re just not worth making yourself. Even if it’s delicious, Sunday is stressful enough without washing lentils and finely chopping carrots and onions.

Heat the bloody oil first. Everybody tells you it’s essential for crispy roasties. And I’ve never believed them. But here I am, listening, receiving, changing. Wack the pan on the hob for a few minutes, or if you’re too nervous, like me, do it in a frying pan and transfer to a roasting dish once you’ve given them a zhuzh.

Don’t underestimate sausage and mash. It’s a respectable dish.

Finally, if you’re going to go through the effort of making a vegan cauliflower cheese, cashew sauce and all, leave the broccoli for a weekday stir-fry. It’s just not worth the complication of different cooking times. Minimise the opportunity for something to go wrong. Focus on maximising pleasure. More of a good thing is more of a good thing. Cauliflower cheese is a sensual dish, don’t feel shamed into offsetting the pleasure with virtue by boiling peas or carrots.

I used to have a real problem with Sundays until I started working from home. The pressure to cram everything in, while somehow relaxing before the working week started all over again was too much. Now, I’m starting to appreciate the slower pace. Moving to a city, where everything doesn’t close at 4 also helps. Hell, a few months ago I make the mistake of walking down Bangor high street on a Sunday. Not a single shop open (besides my beloved Cafe Nero).

Christmas dinner is the exception. All bets are off.

Next year, I promise to make a real effort to learn to love a quiet Sunday. Maybe, I’ll even have a few without leaving the flat. Just pop an M&S nut roast in, put the telly on, and melt into the sofa. Recharging for another week of business as usual.